It's already the end of August?  This summer went so much quicker than others.  Maybe because it's been such a weird summer.  Maybe it's me,  but I don't ever remember having rain in the forcast nearly every day. 

 

Nik's birthday is tomorrow.  We are going to lunch as is our usual tradtion.  Later I will have a birthday cake for her for all of us.  I watched Eric for her and Daniel this weekend.  He went home a little bit ago.  It was so great to have him, but I am so exhausted.  He just never stops, not for a single minute.  Ahhh, but he truly is my heart.  I love him so much -- regardless of the fact that he decided to start his day at 3:30 this morning.  Now that was an adventure.  Yesterday was all about him.  I blew bubbles for hours, took him in the pool - and pop-pop took him for a wagon ride.  He played with the hose, made mud puddles and we watched countless cartoons.  Bedtime won't come too early for me tonight.

 

I have to decide soon which class to take before they are all filled.  I'm leaning toward the Yoga for something different -- and also I was not impressed with the teacher in the last photgraphy class.  He spent alot of time tooting his own horn -- although he is very good at what he does.  He is the teacher for this class also.  But I'm thinking the Yoga will be good for me.  I also remember how much the last class in  Photography confused me.  I know that this class may clear that up, as it is particularly geared toward shutter speed, etc. rather than learning about the camera -- but I think I may have too much on my mind to concentrate.

 

Well - headed for the shower and the store -- it's not very often I take a shower this late, but Eric kinda changed that this morning.  Like I said -- it was all about him.  His mommy has him now, so let the relaxing begin!!!

 

Have a great Sunday everyone!

Till later....

I was awake at 4:00 a.m. so I decided I might as well get up rather than toss and turn in this heat.  Actually it's not the heat I dislike, its the humidity.  The air is so heavy and thick.  Not having air conditioning (a situation I will remedy for next summer), it gets pretty uncomfortable.  I had my coffee and decided to switch to water.  I need all the hydration I could get.

 

Not having been on here for a while I decided to go to my inbox as it said I have 38 messages.  There were a few from some of you and I immediately felt guilty for not having answered.  For not having given this space the attention it deserves.  For not having give my good friends here the attention they deserve.  I'm so sorry -- there aren't words to describe how sorry.

 

I so totally misjudged how life would be once my kids grew up and moved out.  I envisioned we still would be close and would hear from them all the time -- see them often.  Even with my oldest Jaime, being all the way in California.  I envisioned being invited to dinner, dropping by to see the grandbabies.  Shopping with my daughter, trips to the beach or some other place as a family.  I thought they would still stop by to hang out by the pool, or watch a baseball game with dad.  None of this has happened.  I don't hear from Jaime, even though I email and text him and call him, all I get are a few words that he's still alive and ok.  I think maybe all summer I've had 3 or 4 phone conversations with him.  The kids don't drop by unless there's a reason. Nik calls and chats each day though - keeping me up on Eric's activities, and I have Eric for a few hours a few days during the week sometimes.  They've all come by for a BBQ or two when invited, and maybe I am imagining it, but I get the feeling they think they have to.  So -- that's how it is.  The simple version anyway. 

 

Kev and I ramble around, wondering what to do with ourselves.  It's gotten a bit better -- we've learned to entertain ourselves.  We even get along sometimes now.  LOL!

 

I got the School Districts Continuing Education Book yesterday.  There are two classes I want to take, but finances won't let me take both.   Which to choose?  A photography class that is a continuation of the first one I took last year, or a Yoga Class which sounds pretty interesting. 

 

Well, I have some laundry to fold that didn't get done last night because it was so hot and I had absolutely no energy, so I do need to get to that and then head for the shower and work (where its air conditioned!!!).  But this is a start I guess ---

 

Bear with me friends -- I've kept so much inside for so long, this will take a bit.  One thing I had forgotten was that letting things out of my head and heart, writing them down sure does feel cleansing.  Allows me to see things better. And then theres all of you -- helping me to see things in different ways.  Or sometimes just sharing feelings.

 

So ..... till later!

Just a quick note to let everyone know I am ok -- I miss it here.....but so many changes and all --- the words just don't come easy right now.  I will be back, I just need time to adust to lifes changes.  This blog was so very family oriented -- so as I am making changes in my life (or trying anyway) I will be making changes here too.

 

Miss you all!